One big fat long year…

Well. Made it. Feels great. Had no real cravings and been through a hell of a lot. Went through two job losses as the sole provider at home and a hell of a lot of struggle continuing to rebuild marriage. Getting there…slowly. New job starts soon and I’m totally psyched. I was miserable at my last job so all for the better. Onward. Rock on.

Creeping up on one year…

Well. Been a long road but finally approaching a year. Not sure why a year should be more significant than each month along the way…but it is. Just feels like a huge milestone. And I’m psyched. Going through 2nd job loss and search while staying sober which honestly feels like a huge thing to deal with and I’m still sober. First was acquisition layoffs and this was just a shitty match with a CEO I could not see eye to eye with. Should hear today if I got a new job I was waiting on. Crossing fingers and praying for the best. Onward.

Well I suck.

2 and a half months of no posts lol. Dbag. Well still going strong. Not frequenting meetings as much as I’d like but I still feel awesome and no urges and slowly getting my trust back…slowly. Still struggling with wife but slow small steps. We’ll see. I’m not doing enough apparently. Just don’t know what to do anymore. But still chugging along. 😁

Oh!! And wrapping up 6 and 7 finally!

Happy New Year!

7+ months now. Going strong. t meeting here on New Years Day. Figured it’d be a good start to the year lol. Not frequenting enough but still trying to get here 3-4 times a week which seems semi stable for now lol. Hope everyone has a great New Year!

Quiet but OK

Well. I’ve been a turd and very quiet and told myself I wouldn’t do that on my journal. But I’ve been busy as fuck. Jobless looking for work is stressful and a more than full time job. I’m happy to say that after only about 5 weeks I landed one. Woohoo! And at my level (not to sound like a complete fucking lamo…but seriously) this can be a very long process. I networked and did everything possible this time and I have to say that being sober this time helps a wee bit to say the least.

Psyched as hell with new company. New market space outside of healthcare and a small growing profitable company who want me to build up a complete new team. Should be a blast and I love everyone I’ve met so far. Start Monday and cannot wait. Beginning with 12 hours of leadership meetings and presenting on my first day lmao. Should be fun. No pressure lol.

Coming up on 4 months. Feeling good overall. No urges to drink at all which is so cool. Marriage rocky but hot and cold. Some great days some horrible days. I’m moody as fuck and cannot seem to work around that. Think no carb diet is adding fuel to an already blazing fire…not sure. Bit my sons head off yesterday and need to settle the fuck down, he’s such a sweet little dude. Over something g stupid to and I need to fix that shit.

After 15 years of wanting a particular make and model of car…I finally had my true mid life crisis and bought it lol. Had a few bucks from severance and overlapping salaries and found an incredible deal so I said fuck it. 9 year old car with only 30k miles on it and mint condition. I had to just say the hell with it. And it’s fun as hell and I’m glad I did lol. 420 horsies…black on black…manual trans…woohoo. Bring it lol. Exactly what I always wanted. 😀

Coming up on 4 months…feels like 10 lol. Step 4 starting…and it’s gonna be some interesting work. Sponsor says I better be ready…so this should be interesting.

Rock on.

And…i’m jobless lol

Well. Saw it coming. But didn’t see it coming this fast lol. They decided to start chopping heads this week. I was let go on a Monday morning. Zero communication took place to my 80 team members. My directors didn’t know wtf to do. Everyone running around freaking out. Well played new company. Excellent work lmao.

I cannot help but just be so stumped as to why shit wasn’t done differently. It could have been so easy for everyone. I would have been happy to cooperate, work 1-2 weeks to help talk with my departments, at least try to make them feel a little more at ease. Just nuts. Why make chaos when it is completely necessary? I just don’t get it. I did nothing but rock the hell out of my job the last 2 1/2 years and build a team that just kicked ass. Hired great leaders. Changed everything. Morale was awesome. Turn-over was non-existent. Just baffles me how minds think sometimes. And…I can say with 100% confidence this had nothing to do with drinking! woohoo!! lol

But…decent severance…so whatever. Onward. But I’m somebody that just ‘needs to know’ so it’s making me crazy. but i’ll get over it. blah.

Market semi-decent now – so I’m hopeful. Looking promising and the sooner I find something the sooner I get double paid 🙂 so that’s a plus.

Onto the next journey!


2 Months Strong

Depressed about not getting a position I thought I was a shoe-in for…after 4 interviews and a perfect fit…but must not have been meant to be. Blah. But happy for a 2 month anniversary and still going strong. Can only complain a little I guess. Fuck them. Their loss lol.

I’ll leave you with my current view. 😀